I have a question for the mamas in the audience today! When did you first leave your baby? Specifically overnight? And what about for a few nights?
I’ve turned down several travel projects since Augustine was born, and pretty much without question. While I knew Augustine wasn’t ready for that, I really haven’t been either. I want to be with him as much as I can right now. Even when I leave for a couple hours I’m dying to get back home to be with him. You can call it separation avoidance! This mama bear just wants to hold her baby bear! He’s become a huge part of me and even when I’m not holding him my arms feel a little empty. I know one day he’ll be running around and doing his own thing, so I’ve just really held onto all these precious newborn moments as best as I can. And now he’s 8 months old! Ah! Can I even call him a newborn anymore?!
I have one upcoming trip that I can’t get out of though, and nor do I want to. It’s my very best friend’s bachelorette weekend. We’ve known each other since we were 6 years old, so we’ve really been dreaming about this since we were little girls. I’ve loved planning this weekend for her over the past several months with our close group of girlfriends. It’s something we’ve all been looking forward to. The trip is at the end of May, and while I seriously can’t wait to celebrate her, in the desert, drinking cocktails, and having bff time, I’m also a little nervous to leave my little guy for the first time.
I think I might feel more comfortable if Augustine was sleeping through the night, instead of waking up twice. While, sometimes it’s for food, other times it’s just for comfort. I’m hoping to try to wean him from one of the nighttime feeds {ideally the 2-3am one}, over the next few weeks, and start to have Matthew practice putting him down at night. Hopefully, by making these changes gradually over the next few weeks, he’ll be ok. It does make me a little nervous though! Will he notice I’m gone? Will he be sad/upset/confused? Augustine and Matthew are very bonded so I don’t worry about them together in the least, but I am worried about him missing me, especially since I’m his comfort and main food source.
My question for you mamas, is when did you first leave your baby for more than a night? How did it go? Do you have any tips for me? I’d love to hear your thoughts and advice!
xox
photos from my shoot for the Morning Lavender Collection
